It’s simple, really. As my first post in quite some time, I’ll just share some thoughts, feelings, and maybe an idea or two. No edits or complicated sifting through the text.
For starters, I simply don’t have the time to write enough to truly keep this blog alive, though I will do my best to keep adding to the content on my website. I would LOVE to write full time, but that just doesn’t seem to be in the cards for me right now. I’m not bitter about it, although I certainly was for longer than I really would care to admit. God has listened to more than His fair share of complaints from me, and not all of them were valid.
But that’s the thing, is is not? We are told not to be angry with God, to keep those thoughts to ourselves, etc etc. I say, NONSENSE. The God who created and fashioned us to each be unique, to have a perfect path we could follow all our lives, the One who listened to the cares, worries and angers of dozens of patriarchs of the Bible can certainly handle any emotion we can throw at Him. So stop worrying about offending God, or feeling guilty for being as honest with Him as you are with yourself or others humans on this earth. After all, the WORST thing we can do is only share our innermost thoughts with other people that are really just as flawed as we ourselves…
Anyway. It’s been a hell of a year, hasn’t it? And I do actually mean that literally. For many of us, it’s felt like a living hell, shifting from one crisis to the next. Depression is up, and the suicide rate at my last examination has never been higher. So if everything has changed, and we elect to press on, why not do so with some changes to how we think and act?
For me, that means just being honest, brutally so, even, no matter what other people might think. If I don’t like you or something you do or so, guess what? You’ll know it. I promise that I won’t be rude or jaded, but I will tell you how I actually feel or think.
See, I used to think that I should hold back, right? My “author platform” or “persona” needed to be free from anything that might prove to be controversial. But after a few years of that I realized something tremendous. By removing anything that which might offend, I actually diminished who I am, both as a person and an author, because really, they’re one and the same. I am an author. I love to write, to talk, to share with others more than literally any other hobby or personal venture in this world. It’s what I was created for, my purpose, the whole reason that I exist.
I wasn’t given this passion to sit idle or to hold back. Truth be told, I actually enjoy it when someone finds my words offensive, but it isn’t because I get off on the ill feelings I’ve dredged up. It’s because it means I am fulfilling my purpose, and that is to challenge at every turn. If a person is offended by my words, which I share poetically and politely but firmly, too, it means that I have forced that person to think outside of the teeny, tiny little boxes that society and the public education system has taught them to hide behind.
We aren’t really unique unless we think for ourselves. When you let ANYONE else do your thinking for you, even a pastor or a counselor with the best of intentions, you willingly give up your own freedoms, sometimes even sacrificing the things that make you… You.
Sure, there are rules to follow… But mostly, just look to the ten commandments found in Exodus chapter 20 and you’ll do just fine.
If you like (or don’t like it, I really don’t care) what you’ve read today, stay tuned. Plenty more where this came from.
Kurtz out.
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