Thirty years. It’s how long I’ve been on this earth.
What do you do when you look back at the slow crash of your life? To go back through the memories, see who you once were (genuine, kind, passionate) and watch the slow fall from grace into anger and hate? To see the lives you once touched for good having been affected so strongly by the life you chose to live? The choices you’ve made?
Continue reading Wasted
**EDIT, 04-17-22: Read this post here: https://dmkurtz117.net/2022/04/17/freedom-at-the-well/#more-1692 – An update to the words you are about to read, to put them into their proper context. PLEASE READ CAREFULLY, and refer to the blog post above as a true reflection of where I currently stand!**
That title pretty much sums up the content to follow. Nothing eloquent or graceful; just some thoughts and struggles that weigh down a tired soul, and if they are not allowed to escape, I feel as though I will burst at the seams. So, here goes, my dear reader. Delve deep into the mind of a weary and heavy laden individual, if you dare…
Continue reading God Is Dead: A Metaphor
We all know the age old saying, “the drowning man will always try to drag someone down with him”, and the 2016 film Passengers… Wow, 2016? Has it really been five years since I watched that movie in theaters? Man. How the time flies…
*Ahem*. I digress…
If you’ve seen Passengers, you should be familiar with the choice that the would-be protagonist Jim Preston made. It set the course for the rest of the film, and towards the end one of the others characters says of Jim, “the drowning man will always try to drag someone down with him. It ain’t right, but the man’s drowning.”
So what do we do when we feel like we are isolated, sinking deep, drowning? Our hand is outstretched, we’ve been pushed to our limit and feel as though the whole world is crumbling down right on top of us? Worse still, no one seems to notice or care or understand just how much we are hurting? What, then? Do we lash out, shut down, grow as cold as the dark that envelops us? Cling to the hand that reaches out to rescue us and drag it down into the deep with us?
Continue reading The Drowning Man
Let’s get right down to it, guys…
I’ve been fighting a battle with depression for years, now. Too often, I look backwards in time and reflect on choices that I have made and wonder how I could have made such terrible decisions. I am not where I wanted to be at this stage of my life. My path has been riddled with bad ideas and the consequences they brought.
Continue reading God, Jesus & The “Why”
Suffocating, soul-crushing, unbearable weight, total defeat… It goes by many titles, though the most common term is “depression“. Unless you’ve suffered from this debilitating Continue reading Unmasked
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