God – D.M. Kurtz

Wasted

*Vincent Van Goh, At Eternity’s Gate 1890*

Thirty years. It’s how long I’ve been on this earth.

What do you do when you look back at the slow crash of your life? To go back through the memories, see who you once were (genuine, kind, passionate) and watch the slow fall from grace into anger and hate? To see the lives you once touched for good having been affected so strongly by the life you chose to live? The choices you’ve made?

Reflections

Kids: they change everything, don’t they? As they grow, you can see every bit of yourself and your spouse in their little faces. While their minds develop, you’ll see the good and the bad (we lovingly have dubbed it the “obnoxious little mirror syndrome”), in ways that can be very difficult to witness. The gravity of that reflection should build up a certain level of sobering reality. Those children, while each and every bit their own person, are also moldable. What takes shape will vary wildly depending on how you and I should elect to raise them up.

Come As you Are

Hello again, dear reader. As has become the common theme for this blog, having essentially become a public journal that chronicles the key events, moments and direction that my life has taken over the last decade, I am writing this quickly from a place of simple honesty and raw emotion. I thank you for taking the time to read, and for your love and support!

Come as you are…

Freedom At The Well

Wow, what a wild few weeks it has been. If you have been following my blog, I have no doubt that you’ve seen the torrential journey that I have been on these past few years. My eyes well up with tears as I draft this next article, and I pray you take great care to listen and heed what comes next, because, by the grace of God, I have at last found peace, and my trouble heart has been restored!

God Is Dead: A Metaphor

**EDIT, 04-17-22: Read this post here: https://dmkurtz117.net/2022/04/17/freedom-at-the-well/#more-1692 – An update to the words you are about to read, to put them into their proper context. PLEASE READ CAREFULLY, and refer to the blog post above as a true reflection of where I currently stand!**

That title pretty much sums up the content to follow. Nothing eloquent or graceful; just some thoughts and struggles that weigh down a tired soul, and if they are not allowed to escape, I feel as though I will burst at the seams. So, here goes, my dear reader. Delve deep into the mind of a weary and heavy laden individual, if you dare…

God, Jesus & The “Why”

Let’s get right down to it, guys…

I’ve been fighting a battle with depression for years, now. Too often, I look backwards in time and reflect on choices that I have made and wonder how I could have made such terrible decisions. I am not where I wanted to be at this stage of my life. My path has been riddled with bad ideas and the consequences they brought.